Washing - my heart cries out for you
Today we bought a new washing machine - we got a really good deal and brought it home straight away. It is doing a load right now, but you couldn't tell because it is so quiet!
We are playing at the Sea and Vines Festival tomorrow and Monday. I am pretty excited! I got a few new tops to wear and some new pants... it is a pity it won't help with the whole 'me' thing! It is exciting getting new clothes, but it doesn't really help me look any better!
My hubby got a new hair do today - it is really funny because as much as I unfortunately think it makes him look about 14 years old, it is exactly how I thought he would get it cut!
Lately I just feel so unappreciated. I know that I shouldn't expect too much from my 5 year old and my 3 week old baby, but from others, I just feel like a big piece of nothing. I hate feeling that within my marriage, my partner knows nothing about me, and I know nothing about him! What do you do if you have nothing in common with your partner? I think that sex is really the only thing we have in common! That is pretty sad isn't it?! Everything that is fun for him, happens away from home, and with people other than me... the flying of planes, watching movies and tv shows, sailing, and anything else you can think of - sometimes he even goes out to do nothing! Sometimes I think, 'at least he still comes home for dinner', but when he does, he still complains about what I make! I can't win! Today, when I was crying and trying to tell him how unloved I felt, he 'jokingly' said that he doesn't spend time with me because I am boring! I just cried my little eyes out! I am boring! and that is why he goes out all the time! AAAHHHH What to do? What to do? I just cry...
I find it so hard to explain to him what it is that I feel... I can't even explain it to myself! I hate being left alone at night, but when he is here, I don't want to stay up until 2.30 in the morning watching some crap on TV! He doesn't realise that I am pretty tired in the evenings... I don't have the stamina of a 12 year old anymore! What is it that he wants from me??? I don't want to be the mother of his kids who is a guaranteed baby sitter for whenever he wants to go out. :(
Until next time...
We are playing at the Sea and Vines Festival tomorrow and Monday. I am pretty excited! I got a few new tops to wear and some new pants... it is a pity it won't help with the whole 'me' thing! It is exciting getting new clothes, but it doesn't really help me look any better!
My hubby got a new hair do today - it is really funny because as much as I unfortunately think it makes him look about 14 years old, it is exactly how I thought he would get it cut!
Lately I just feel so unappreciated. I know that I shouldn't expect too much from my 5 year old and my 3 week old baby, but from others, I just feel like a big piece of nothing. I hate feeling that within my marriage, my partner knows nothing about me, and I know nothing about him! What do you do if you have nothing in common with your partner? I think that sex is really the only thing we have in common! That is pretty sad isn't it?! Everything that is fun for him, happens away from home, and with people other than me... the flying of planes, watching movies and tv shows, sailing, and anything else you can think of - sometimes he even goes out to do nothing! Sometimes I think, 'at least he still comes home for dinner', but when he does, he still complains about what I make! I can't win! Today, when I was crying and trying to tell him how unloved I felt, he 'jokingly' said that he doesn't spend time with me because I am boring! I just cried my little eyes out! I am boring! and that is why he goes out all the time! AAAHHHH What to do? What to do? I just cry...
I find it so hard to explain to him what it is that I feel... I can't even explain it to myself! I hate being left alone at night, but when he is here, I don't want to stay up until 2.30 in the morning watching some crap on TV! He doesn't realise that I am pretty tired in the evenings... I don't have the stamina of a 12 year old anymore! What is it that he wants from me??? I don't want to be the mother of his kids who is a guaranteed baby sitter for whenever he wants to go out. :(
Until next time...
posted by Sara @ 3:47 pm
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